So, what do I do? Continue to suck it up, or further distance myself and risk hurt feelings for being absent? Or do I come clean with my partner and risk hurting them? I don’t know what I would expect them to do other than offer me absolution for missing events. Also, I feel like it would be inappropriate to tell my partner how I feel. I have also started skipping events with my partner’s family, but I feel guilty when I do this. Recently, I have taken to muting them on social media so that I don’t have to see their insipid posts. They are sheltered and don’t really have any friends. At first, I tried to cut them some slack. As far as anyone knows, they have never been kissed or even on a date. They are rapidly approaching middle age and have never held a full-time or permanent job. They chew with their mouth open and talk with their mouth full. They don't wait until everyone is served before starting, and they are often finished before everyone is served. At family dinners, they always serve themselves first. They are fake, self-absorbed, and delusional. “Though I've had many incredible experiences with men, I’ve met just as many women that wanted to lock me up in the most serious forms of restraint you could ever imagine.”įollow Heavy on Twitter on Instagram and Only Fans at Heavybondage4life.Īs we come into the holidays, I am dreading having to spend time with my sibling-in-law. “It’s a myth that only men play to the level BOUND is interested in playing at,” said Heavy. Am I silly for considering doing stuff with men even though I'm a lot more attracted to women, just in order to fulfill these kinks?Īnd Heavy wants you to know that there are women out there who are into intense bondage. I've just recently been feeling less shame about being kinky and now there's this whole other level of shame that I am scared to contend with. I was bullied and called a faggot constantly. I grew up in a very rural area that was extremely homophobic. And I don't want the poor guy that I play with to have to deal with my own internal psychological drama. I don't know if I'll feel repulsed to have, say, a dick in my mouth. I think the former is going to win, but certain things concern me. It's like a battle between my identity as a kinkster/fetishist and my identity as straight. He showed me Recon, which has opened a whole new world up to me. I've been talking to a guy who shares a very similar set of kinks, and it's been great. I think men have a higher propensity to pursue these kinds of things. Since then, I've seen some other women but looking around I came to the realization that gay men have all the fun! I often see these incredibly intense sexual experiences that I so desire in amateur gay porn or on various gay men’s fetish profiles. My wife is incredible, and we do many wonderful kinky things together, but I needed more. In the last year we opened up our marriage because my sexual desires were putting too much of a strain on the marriage. I’m a 32-year-old straight male who has been married for five years. Think full-body casts or getting locked up for an entire weekend. To give an example, I love long-term and extremely restrictive bondage. I’m extremely kinky, with an emphasis on extreme.
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